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October 16, 2009 – 7:58 pm

it’s been quite a while I haven’t post here. ha! ha!

Anyway, it was a great year though.. Everything was unexpected..many things happened and if i would tell all the happenings, it would take me months to tell them. 

I decided to visit my blog. Thanks to my cousin Jan Benedict Pilapil for reminding me that I still have my blogsite. 

 

hmm.. to start with.. i don’t even know where to start.. Well, it’s already 3:51 in the morning of

October 17, 2009 and i have to go to skul at 8am and i am still awake. i just can’t sleep.

 Many things had happened and one of the great things…….is that……hahahahaha!! My best friend..who is now very VERY close to me. IS COMING BACK!! I’m really excited when i hear 2nd sem is here. it is like HE is HERE! Im going crazy but actually i am just overwhelmed that this guy who is important to me is coming back and he’s one of the reasons why.. why.. why.. why I’m getting inspired in making these school stuffs..haha! He really makes me laugh.. i just don’t know why.. i Hope when he comes back to school.. i really wish everything will go well.

 

 "hoy John Rey Aleria. kung binabasa mo’to ngaun.. tarungin ang pag-aaral at tatarungin ko dn ang akin..hahahha!! miss you tikig. naks!ayeeeeehh!hahhaha may dapat pa akong sabihin pero alam mo na un..ahahahaha i took a dive in your deep brown eyes and i couldn’t get enough of air no.. hahahah CAPTURED buh!! sabot!?hahahah!"

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A True Friend’s Reply..

March 27, 2009 – 8:17 am

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A Short Story shared to a Friend

March 26, 2009 – 2:54 pm

there was this english project that i have been asking them days before the deadline..i don’t really

know how to do it so i asked them several times what about it but then they just say "ambot" and

that pissed me off so i stopped asking them. i don’t know about it because i was absent that time it

was announced. My grandfather died and that’s on my birthday. Anyway, when the deadline of the

proj came, I sacrificed my hours of sleep just to make the proj but before that, during the sunday, our

physics group meet at the school to finish our proj in physics and filipino..all of us came but jayson did

not appear. That day was my plan to share with my english groupmates the task in making the project

but only Stephen and i appeared so i decided that only the both of us will make. After that, i have no

sleep, when monday morning approaches, i went to school with a frown on my face. I was mad with

my groupmates because they are so dependent to me. i didn’t talk to them, even Stephen. Releasing

my madness, I went down stairs alone and went to the offices to have them sign my clearance. When

I get back, they are staring at me but i am not staring back. Stephen is still beside me and talking to

me if i am mad at them but i was just silent. Jayson on the other hand, changed his mood but i didn’t

mind cause it’s my moment to be mad and not him. LoL!=)) Anyway, i decided to talk to them by group

when all of them are already in the classroom. I shared with them the tasks and they agreed. Then

when i look at the face of Jayson, he already not in the mood but i still didn’t mind because i have the

right to get mad.LOL!hahahah! When the day ended, my mood turn to light. Remember, i am a very

moody person and they know it. I don’t know with Jayson, he can’t accept what i am. When we went

to our own ways, I said farewell to them with a smile and Stephen smiled in return. On the other hand,

Jayson didn’t. The next day, Jayson was not talking to me anymore and even though i talk to him he

won’t answer me politely, it’s like a bit sarcastic or really being sarcastic. I wondered why he is acting

like that. I asked to Stephen and Sydney and Sheana as well why is he treating me like that. They

said they have no idea. I felt my blood pressure rises when i see his face. Then again I asked Stephen

and finally he answered ‘he is not treating you the usual way he treats you because you are so moody

and he was pissed off. He also said that even though he wasn’t able to come that Sunday it is my

responsibility to text him as a leader. But!It is also his responsibility to ask me what is he going to do

to help. I was very busy that time and he prioritize seeing his BEST FRIEND the day before Sunday,

Saturday it is. He reasoned out that he wasn’t able to come because he has no money anymore to pay

for the fare and that’s not an excuse for us because the fare that he spend during he meet his best

friend was the fare for him to attend the group finalizing the projects. this is so long

already..hahahaha! anyway, he continued to ignore me even though the 5 of us are together. He only

talks to them except me and worst Benj, he is flirting with Kershey in FRONT of me and kershey is also

flirting back. They held hands benj..hahahaha! And they continued until the final day of the final exam.

I don’t talk to him anymore the day I know the reason why he is ignoring me. Now I am happier

because I don’t need to talk to him. I admit that there are times that i come to think of how is he right

now but now?I don’t really care anymore. I finally had enough and I really really feel happy that i

kicked him out of my "life" , I just don’t know why..honestly..i just hope he is happy of what he did to

me..again.,.HAHAH! I believe in Karma.

 

 ……………..Goodluck sa mga taong SELF CENTERED kaayo!hahahahaha

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My New Bestfriend

March 23, 2009 – 5:50 pm

i was alone during the Nstp class that happens only on Saturdays. there’s this one session that i was

all alone because my assistant was unable to come early that’s why he was behind the doors. Good

thing he was late! LOL.. Anyway, there’s this guy that i really don’t know but he was so friendly and

sat right next to me. I,as the co-facilitator of the group, must be approachable. I admit that the time

he sat right next to me, my heart jumps because he is really unexpected to sit next to me. Anyway,

he asked me things about me, he also shared some of is fields of interests. I dunno what’s this guy is

up to but i really appreciated his friendliness to me.

 

During the sessions of the NSTP, he likes to annoy me everytime i pass him. He teases me "rich rich" even though i’m not. There was this another session that i found him sitting alone so i decided to

sit beside him not minding my assistant. I talked to him. Then he shared to me that he is going to

transfer to another skul in their place, at Cotabato. When i heared him say those things, I felt heavy

because my new found friend is going to leave me. I didn’t show him that i am so worried that he was

going away but instead i just threatened him that if time will come and i see him and he won’t

approach me, im going to spank him hard, but i was just really kidding.

 

During the last session of the NSTP, i really looked for him and waited for him to go down the stairs. I

was just waiting the whole time in the lobby, waiting for his shadow to appear. When i saw him, i jumped to my chair that made my seatmates jumped too.. then i ran to him so fast. When i got to

him, he seemed so shocked. He looked at me straight into my eyes. Maybe he was just wondering why

i am in front of him. Before i can speak, he told me not to pinch him because he didn’t tease me for

that session and that he is innocent. That made me grin. Before another word, i asked his number. He

was again shocked. Maybe. But then, he gave me his number and asked mine too. I told him that i

don’t want to loose my new friend that’s why i asked his number. Then, I went back to my chair in the lobby with a grin in my face.

 

Through the long months we haven’t seen each other, we still are keeping in touch and still in

communication. Even though i have lost my phone, he still waited for me to text him. By that time, he proved to me that he is really a good friend to have.  We became close, it’s a bit odd to say but

yes it’s because we texted each other. Whenever I register to unlimited texting and he is not, he

makes effort to purchase load to text me. He’s really cute of what he’s doing.

As the days pass by, we share problems and he promised me to make me smile whenever im sad carry me around when my arthritis is bad…LOLz. I am really touched about him, he is not shy of what he

wants to say and because of that we became best friends. Until now, our friendship is getting

stronger. 

 

 

Hope to see you soon bespren!hahahahah

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Unexpected

March 23, 2009 – 5:28 pm

the day of my birthday..there are unexpected things that happened..

it was the day that i turned 18 but i proposed to my parents to celebrate my debut at the end of the month.. they agreed to that..but my mom asked why do i want to postpone it.. i don’t even know.. but one of the reasons that i pursue to postpone my celebration is that.,my bestfriend is going home on the 27th of February that’s why i decided to celebrate it on the 28th.

When i was still at school, my friends, especially my close friends, they greeted me with a big smile and a hug..they also sang a happy birthday song to me. that day was indeed great. me and my close friends were just laughing almost the whole day. After  school, i went home. my mother told me that my grandfather has already passed away. i was in great shock. i was stunned for about a minute knowing what happened.

there was a bit of reunion, my aunts and uncles from out of town went home to davao. my cousin, that i haven’t met before, also visited davao. when we are still at the funeral, we befriend our cousin from out of town.. she seems to be so snobbish because of her facial expression but then she was not. my cousin and i has the same birthdays. We get along together and understand things the way we understand it.

 

The burial was on the 26th. it was raining. the semi-whole family of the Narciso clan was present. all of us went to the cemetery and be with our grandfather for the last time. After the burial, we were happy that the sufferings of our grandpa has ended and he is now in the good hands of God.

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Saturday Blues

January 25, 2009 – 10:52 am

here we are in the best year’s of our lives, but there are really times that unexpected things happen.

Saturday is the first year’s activity day and it is also one of the enjoyable day of the week!maybe….

The day started the usual, I waking up, taking a bath, eat, brush teeth and zoom.. While walking along the street, I am texting with my special friend. I was already happy that the both of us are back to normal again..maybe…. This day,I thought this would be a normal great day for me. Just as I thought. While I was replying to all of his messages, his messages are being unusual, he’s treating me like a guy and calling me "bai" every after the sentence in his text message. I asked him why is he calling me that way. He just said, "chuy man gud ka bai". After those words, I thought those are compliments and simply, jokes. That’s what I thought.

After the trip from our house,  alas, school is just how many steps away. During this day, I feel so lazy. I couldn’t even move my body like the usual Ely does. I feel so weak because of the pillow fight during the Friday’s afternoon at Benjo’s place. I was just sleeping the whole time when I was just alone and still waiting for our groupmates, including him, to arrive. When he arrived, I was just no comment. I was just still wondering why he is calling me "lalake man ka" that’s why I didn’t talk to him that much when he said Hi. Apparently  and as usual, I am the first to greet him.

 

While waiting for our group to be called, he was bored. He talked to me and basically I answered. I was telling him about the bruises I gained from all his hard pinch on my leg. He just said "okey lang na, lalake bitaw ka". Then I just smiled, thinking it was just a joke. That’s what I thought. The both of us were bored again for the very long time waiting for our group to be called for the assigning of numbers. Ely get bored, I played with my hand as an airplane passing underneath Jayson’s nostrils. He was a bit pissed off of what I am doing but he is still laughing. He warned me to stop annoying him or else he’s going to show no mercy for me. I , being hard headed and being childish again, I didn’t stop instead I continued to annoy him. Being annoyed much, he started to pinch me again, so hard that made me so weak and I can hardly walk straight because of the pain but I just kept silent. I still annoyed him with my hands, until he grabbed both of my hands and start banging it to the nearest wood! It was really painful! I punched him hard on his left arm but after i punched him, he grabbed again my hand and gripped it on the wrist so hard that made me cry in front of many students. I cried because of the pain from his grip.

 

So many things that happened after we went out of the school. We ate our lunch just in front of our school and we went back inside the campus. During that time, I was just standing really really feeling weak. Jayson saw one of his friends during highschool and he sat beside her. His friend told him "hoy jayson palingkura na si Ely oh.." then he just replied "patindoga lng na, lalake bitaw na".. Hearing those words, I was not smiling already. Those lines are really getting into my nerves. I just went silent, pretending not to hear anything. I checked my phone and saw my mother’s message asking me to go to my grandma’s house to get the used clothes of my sister. I nearly reached my boiling point but before that, I tried to sit beside Jayson to calm myself. When i was already beside him, he told me he’s going to the comfort room to change his shirt. Then he went back but didn’t sit beside me anymore. I was really getting mad that time and being so mad I can’t look at him and can’t even talk to him. Finally, I told sheana that I’ll go ahead because I still have some things to do. So she agreed with me and she told Jayson too that we are going home. I stood up and just walked, I looked back and saw him still sitting on the bench. I thought he was just sitting for a moment and then will follow. That’s when I thought.

 

I was not wondering anymore and I got the point why he is not yet going home. When I hopped onto the jeep, I texted him and asked him if he and his bestfriend are going out again. He said yes we have a date. Surprised of what he said, my hands are getting shakey. I tell him things that they are so sweet and seemed to be they are already what I think they are. He said no, he told me that they are just friends. Anyway, when I got to my grandma’s place, my grandma saw me and greeted me a happy birthday followed by the question where am i going to celebrate my 18th birthday. I just smiled.

I rest my back on the sofa bed and still texting with him. He is still calling me "bai" and he’s telling me that he doesn’t like a man like me. I was really really annoyed of him telling me that I’m a guy. Diverting my annoyance towards him, I told him that I am going to the mall with my grand parents and my cousin to buy their favorite bread called "putok bread". During the travel, I asked him if he is really serious of what he really thinks about me. He told me that he is already serious telling me that he can really see a guy in me. He insists that I am no longer a lady but a guy in his eyes. I was having teary eyes, avoiding to cry in front of my cousin. I asked him again "do you still like me?" then he answered "yes I still like you as an adviser.." I cleared the things he said "as an adviser nalng? ngano?" then he answered me "chuy man gud kaayo ka, nadiscourage lang ko sa imoha kay mas lalake pa ka sa akoa". "alangan kinsa man ang lalake ganahan na ang iyang nagustuhan na babae kay mas lalake pa sa iyaha, sorry jud kaayo bai na wala tika giingnan dayon.. dili lang nako gusto mawala ang atong friendship.." Knowing those things, my brain was in the range of exploding and as well as my feeble heart. I was being berserk and now i can’t stop my tears from falling. I was crying the time we are in the car. My cousin already saw me crying and he wants me to laugh so he’s trying to crack some jokes towards me. What i knew was really a great shock to me. He broke my heart so much. He made me so dumb! and he made me look stupid! He was discouraged because of how I act. he wanted me to be a girl but the question is.. why did he give up so fast? hadn’t he have the patience to wait until my debut? the reason is really really shallow. I was really depressed and trying to divert what i am feeling. Everytime I’m alone, i just can’t help but to think about what he told me and then i cry again. Being so much depressed, I decided to talk to my sister, I really needed help. I was crying the whole afternoon and the whole night when i was talking to my sister. After I told my sister what happened between us during this very very short time. She told me that i must have a healthy distance with him, I will just let him to be him, let him alone and leave him alone for what he has done to me. My sister was getting berserk after i told her everything. After our heart to heart conversation, we went out of her room and we decided to eat outside. It was already 10:00pm when we went to Jollibee. We ate and waited for my sister’s boyfriend. How many minutes have passed, her boyfriend came. Then we were chatting and chatting until my sister decided to go to the bathroom. I was nervous because my future brother-in-law is in front of me. He asked me what happened then i told him some highlights of my story of the day. I also showed him my bruises. He said, he’s not a guy. Literally. He doesn’t respect girls and he wanted what he wanted pronto. So he also told me to let him realized what kind of treasure he just take far granted and let go.

 

The day was really unexpected. It was the worst day of my first month of my new year. When i was going home, I asked them if am i still going to invite him to my 18th birhtday. Then they said yes, and they will have their eyes on him. 

 

It was just what I thought things are getting better. But that i just what i thought.

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To The New One

October 24, 2008 – 6:07 pm

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One Step At A Time

June 5, 2008 – 3:45 pm

Hurry up and wait, so close yet so far away

Everything that you’ve always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste but you just can’t touch

 

You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

 

Now your feeling more and more frustrated

And your getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take

 

One step at a time there’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s supposed to happen

That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

 

You believe and you doubt

You’re confused, you got it all figured out

Everything that you always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours if they only knew

 

You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

 

Now your feeling more and more frustrated

And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take

 

One step at a time there’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s supposed to happen

That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

 

When you can’t wait any longer

There’s no end in sight

It’s the faith that makes you stronger

The only way we get there is one step at a time

 

Take one step at a time there’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s supposed to happen

That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

 

One step at a time there’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s supposed to happen

That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

 

 

from the album: Jordin Sparks

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ME….or NOT ME??

May 25, 2008 – 1:32 pm

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May 25, 2008 – 1:08 pm

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